At the heart of my meditation, I have found observation of the world. This observing comes before all the rest of the faculties of the mind. It is not in conflict with any thing or any movement of the mind. It is choiceless. It has no aim, it gives no result. It just is.
No big miracles, not leaving once humanity with all its bends and bumps, but just staying, resting, observing, accepting….
When it comes to meditation there is a myth of nothingness. This expresses itself in ideas like original balance, purity and no-mind.
The thing is they all have the idea of an original place of perfectness, as there origion and the travel to this original place as there goal. This idea perpetuate the basic idea that the present moment is not the place to be and that our present condition is not the condition to have. It also comes with all kind of trappings like the perfect other person to look up to, the perfect state to strive towards, the pure life to strive for etc.
The thing is they all miss the boat.
Being mindfull in the present moment does not start with the wish for change. It starts with the relaxation with what is. Now this again has a trap in it because what if I cant relax, what if there is some non-acceptance in me?
This is why I write that the goal is to relax with what is, even if that is non-acceptance.
Meditation takes the mind to effortlessly observe the present moment, with all there is in it. This is another way to say to relax with what is.
It is my experience that it is in this relaxing with what is, that one can eperience a peaceful being, that trancends, bodily comfort, thougts, emotions and inner experience. This peaceful being is available to everybody at all times, when we relax with what is.
Seen in this light it becomes obvious that any striving to an imagined original state of purity will only take us away.
There is no difference
Between yourself, Self and Guru
You are always free
There is no teacher
No teaching
No student ” Papaji
Letting go….
When I realised that I will never know, never master, never attain
I let go
Letting go all there is left is bewilderment and beauty
A beauty that is completely unpretentious and which comes and goes as it wishes
A beauty that is democratic in nature
That can never be given or taken
That nobody can teach
That has nothing to do with purity, unpurity nor growth
A beauty there was to begin with and there will be in the end
So my spiritual quest ends being nothing but savouring the moment
Charising the state of precense
In a world I can never make sense of, master or map out
I am not sure what the divine is…. But I know there is something. And that something is to be seen in everyone. But it is not about seeing something in the sense that we normally understand it. It is not a seeing from the outside, we can´t see it on anybody as such. But it is a seeing that anyone can experience by seeing oneself. So what is it.. I dont know, but it feels like a song and the humms of bumble bees on a summer afternoon.
Nobody can do it for anybody and nobody need anybody to do it. It is who we are…. And its not going to change anything either. It is the nature of things, so on the contrary everything will stay the same. And somehow it is allright…
“Civilized people, whether Western or Eastern need to be liberated and de-hypnotized from their systems of symbolism”
Allan Watts
charles says:
what you up to?
Thorbjørn says:
cofee
Thorbjørn says:
and a big smile over how beautiful life is today
If one chooses ones own prison, one is not imprisoned, but when one is forced…….
Freedom is the beauty of life, it screams at the top of its lungs in the green of the leaves
Life breathes in me today
So much that I could cry, die, hurl myself from a thousand feet or just go and get coffee…..
this feeling in my chest this morning that have gotten me into all the trouble I have been in my life
a feeling of freedom, and happiness and a longing for life so much that it is painfull
makes you want to scream, or just go and get cofee
so what you gonna do with it?
cofee
There can be no path. If you are on a path you are going somewhere. And if you are going somewhere you will always be going away. Either you are there, moving from there or you will never be there.
Only when you see that you are already fulfilled and you choose to live from that joy, you will have it.
You can never get it. You can just have it.
So when they try to sell you the future know that they want to steal your life.
Only listen to those who let you know that you are allready there.
That you are fullfilled and have all you need.
That now is the time.
No path.
Just
Now
Mindfulness is to come to the present moment being with what is.
The key to mindfulness is seeing that this moment is perfect. This is not an intellectual rationalisation. It is an experiential truth happening when one lets go of both craving and aversions. This letting go, is actually not a letting go as much as a happening. One just have to be open to it.
So just know that this moment holds all.
Then close the eyes and relax.
There is no secret. Life just is.
There is no great secret that needs to be known and mastered. And there is no great secret where by you can control and master life.
Life happens. We can choose to be present and true. We can choose to be in integrity with our core. We can choose to act from happiness and enthusiasm instead of fear and guilt. We can choose to enjoy the moment as it is. All this we can but there is no secret.
Sure there are small hints one can get that makes it all much easier. But these are practical hints with a individual and dynamic nature not great metaphysical secrets. They will not change the nature of life. Life is what it is and all we can do is to accept it and move with it.
The great thing is that when we do this magic happens.
Many of us have a tendency to strive for perfection. A deep longing to be perfect runs through our lives. But what is the reality about reaching the perfect when we look close? Even the specialists who dedicate there whole life to perfecting a small area of experience struggle with reaching the perfect. If you listen closely then the more brilliant the performer the more acutely is the awareness of the multitude of mistakes. The funny thing is that seeing the specialist fail in the quest for perfection we still manage to beat ourselves for the mistakes we make in our daily life.
The amazing thing is that there exist such a thing as perfection for the top performers. And this level is reached when the striving for perfection ceases. When the athlete reaches the zone, the artist gets inspired, the scientist get his breakthrough it is nearly always closely connected to an experience of effortlessness. Not only does the performer no longer attribute much to whether he is performing perfectly even more stunning is that the very distinction between right and wrong, the basis of the idea of perfection, seems to disappear. The performer stands back with an experience of the present moment in which he effortless unfolds his potential.
The breath taking and paradoxical is that in that moment there is a feeling of perfection for the performer. But it is no longer linked to any outer measurement of right or wrong. Instead it is on the feeling level. It is an experience of fullness and completeness. The end of striving and the arrival of completion. It is a feeling of having attained.
Now the beautiful thing is that this experience of attainment, flow, inspiration or what ever word one would want to put on it is not something foreign for us. It is our very core. And when we let go of the judging of ourselves and our surroundings the present moment opens up to the experience of this completeness as our nature.
Knowing this it becomes clear that indeed our only job is to see that we indeed already are perfect. That no matter what situation we find ourselves in at our core we always have the possibility of the experience of this fullness. That we have to let go of wanting to be somewhere else and instead see that we already have attained. That there is nowhere to go and nothing to get. That the present moment holds the promise of all.
In the spiritual field there is no attainment. The thing is that we all already have attained. It is our essence that is the goal of the spiritual path and this essence is ever the same. So you could argue that there is no such thing as a spiritual path because you are already there. The “attainment” on the spiritual path is but the experiencing of our own essence. The message of the sages over the years is that this essence holds everything we ever dreamt of. That all our hopes and longings are already fulfilled in our essence.
The mistake is when we believe that it is possible to change anything nor necessary. Now life will always be life. Its nature is what it is. We will all have our share of good and bad. Adventures and pricese, victories and defeats. And they allways change move and transforms.
But in this movement something is constant some core is untouched and always the same. Meditation is but being with this core of ours. There is no need to change or transform anything, all we need to do is relax. And with this relaxation we experience the amazing adventure of who we our essence. Nobody needs to tell us or show us. Nobody can tell nor show us. Because the attainment is our and we already have succeeded.
Now the masters have a few tricks, of how to calm the mind of getting in balance with nature and how to handle the feelings. This is all details. The most important thing is to know that you allready attained. You are perfect now and life is perfect now. Just close your eyes, relax and the adventure begins.
It is said that when the Buddha was enlightened he was asked, “What did you get?”, and to this he answered, ” I gained nothing and lost everything.”
Now I do not feel competent to give any authoritative explanation of the words of Lord Buddha. But I do feel that the words of Buddha is reflecting the distance between our dreams of enlightenment and what he got when he attained. Inspired by this I here offer at the feet of the lord Buddha, my experiences with the idea of enlightenment.
The idea of Enlightenment can be a trap for the mind, leading you to believe:
That getting enlightenment you will finally get what you have been seeking.
That getting enlightenment life will finally start imitating your wishes, dreams and plans.
That getting enlightened life will be perfect.
That getting enlightened you will be perfect.
That getting enlightened you will finally change to the better.
Instead of all this just see:
That your search will never get you anything other than the dropping of the search itself.
That life always will move on its own disregarding your wishes and commands.
That being enlightened or not life will be flawed.
That being enlightened or not you will have flaws.
And you could choose to see:
that you do not need to change at all
that you are perfect and complete right now
that you have all you ever searched for
that no enlightenment is needed
because you already attained
A very good friend of mine have just come home from a one month yoga course. He is absolute bursting of enthusiasm and the wish for sharing with the world all the beautiful things he has experienced. He is genuinely inspired and very good company. Sitting with this inspired friend of mine we came to talk about the wish for change.
Sometimes we have a wish for changing things. We wish that the world should be different than it is. Some of us even go so far as to work for change, trying to create the world that we dream off. I myself spend quite a few years wanting to help change the world to the better. The problem is that this wish for changing the world, however beautiful our aspirations are, has a subtle negation in its core. A non accepting of what is now.
Somebody once said be the change that you wish for. I would change this a bit. Instead of being the change that you wish for let go even of the wish to change. Instead be with the perfectness of your nature. The beauty and light of your self. Be with this nature and you can not help having a beautiful impact on the world. What more is you will not get tired. You will not get upset with the world, instead you will just rejoice.
True enthusiasm does not come from goals. True enthusiasm comes from experiencing the beauty of your self and then acting out from this core. Then the enthusiasm will be undying.
And as allways if you can not feel your perfectness right now, if you can not see your beauty just know that its there. Just know that you are ever perfect and complete. Knowing this just relax and let go.
I have often met the opinion that meditation is having no thoughts. That to truly meditate you must reach a point where there is no thoughts.
From my experience of meditation this is no more than an attachment to the idea of having no thoughts. Whether you have thoughts or no thoughts the important point is to be relaxed with what is. Having no preference. The wanting to have no thoughts takes you away from being able to relax. It places the idea in you that if there is thoughts it is not OK.
The distinction between thought and no thoughts is of the mind but meditation is of the heart. Don’t mind this distinction. If there is no thoughts just relax and be with it. Also if there is thoughts relax and be with it. If a thought arises and it prevents you from relaxing you just relax with the tension this brings. Meditation is not confined to the state of no tension. Meditation is definitely not limited to any ideality of the mind. Meditation is to relax in to the part of ones being which is relaxed no matter what.
First of all just realise that you allready have attained and you are perfect. That there truly is nowhere to go and nothing to get. Then relax close your eyes and enjoy what ever is.
Btw, an important point is that also if you feel wonderful, relaxed and a big oneness, you just relax and be with what is.
My mother is ill and have been for some time and will be for the rest of her life. Some people have tried to frame this experience of mine in words that console and rationalities that see something positive. Others have seen it as something negative and come with all kind of suggestions of how to relieve the “problem”.The thing is that neither works for me. I can not explain this part of my life away as something positive. But neither can my heart approach it as a fight that has to be won. Both I feel takes me away from love in the moment.
All I am able to do is to see that this is how life is. That the nature of life encompasses illness and death. And that this is part of everybodys experience of life. It is the suchness of life and seeing this I have accepted it. This has for some strange reason left me with life without words. Life in the present moment as an experience of happenings.
Sometimes a part of me struggles and sometimes I just accept. When I accept there is a beauty and a freshness to the moments that is amazing. And when I am not able to I tend to move towards compassion. Compassion towards the parts of me that struggle. Compassion towards my mom and my family. And compassion towards all life. This is not a heroic compassion but a quite compassion that embraces life, world and myself.
When I meditate and the struggle arise in me I sit and embrace life as it is. I do not try to remove the struggle or pain nor do I try to go somewhere nice. I just sit and embrace what is. And for me this embracing consoles and relieves. Sometimes I feel that in this embracing life and events, all of life’s events, I experience the compassion of Buddha that reaches out and comforts the tears of man. That Buddha is sitting with me through those moments.
Just close your eyes. Yes that’s it just close your eyes and relax. Do nothing but enjoy your own beautiful nature. Its so simple. Be nobody but your true self.
Somehow meditation have been made something exotic and difficult. A deep secret that we have to learn. But the truth is that mediation is the most intimate and natural thing we can do. Just being with whom we are. Meditation, as it should be, is taking a break from all demands and expectation. Instead of being busy with attaining, it is the state of having attained. Don’t believe all those who says your a million miles away because your not. Your there already and this moment is beautiful and fulfilled. Now just close your eyes and enjoy it fully.
Now maybe you close your eyes and your experience is a little disturbed. Then don’t worry there are few small practical tricks that you can learn. But first know that you are already there. Know you are there and there is nowhere to go. You are perfect and this moment is perfect. Just close your eyes and relax….
I was visiting one of my old friends for the first time after coming back to Denmark. Here I met her small girl who was just adorable. She completely stole my heart and I commented on how nice she was. My friend answered that it was no big job to raise a kid to become beautiful. The most important was not to interfere to much and allow the kid to be true to its nature.
Wow, such a beautiful remark. The secret of life expressed in the love from mother to child. Because isn’t this true for us all? Everybody is intrinsic beautiful and perfect. All it takes is to allow ourselves to be who we are. To allow our beautiful individual nature express itself naturally.
So what to do when we do not feel beautiful? First of all are you sure that you are not full of light and beauty, take a closer look. If you still feel a little disturbed. This is the trick. Just relax. Allow yourself to let go of all the stress and unnaturalness. Just be and slowly you will feel that you return to yourself and being centred and relaxed your beauty shines through.
Its so easy just relax…..
True selfworth comes when we know our self. It is not possible to get true selfworth through any happenings or possessions in the world. We see this by the fact that it is not uncommon to feel a lack of selfworth despite success in the world.
But lack of selfworth is really not a big thing. It is just a small indication that our relationship to ourselves has become a little bit superficial. And all we need to do is to seek a little bit deeper. To become a little more intimate with us selves. When we get to know ourselves, when we become a little more intimate with who we are, there is no chance that we can not feel that our self has a great worth. The beautiful thing is that when our own selfworth unfolds we see how beautiful everybody else is.
Comparison is really not possible. When we compare ourselves with others it is really just because we do not know who we are. Because when we know ourselves comparison no longer makes any sense, it just drops. Seeking selfworth through success in the world, wich is basically just looking for a positive comparison of one self compared to others makes no sense, because when you know the true worth of your self you also see the worth of everybody else. And it is such a beautiful experience. I think that one of the most beautiful riches I have experienced is the freedom and richness of knowing the beauty of myself and everybody else.
Hi everybody, welcome to my new blog. This blog is dedicated to sharing moments of life. The moments where life expands and vibrate with precense.
My life has always been about experience those moments of joy and I invite all you with whom I share this interest, to participate in the life of this blog.
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